请记得你要比我幸福 - 陈晓东

Sometimes it just feels so right when this guy besides u is ur friend,ur buddy,ur bf all at the same time.

Sometimes I am just afraid that when we are too comfortable with every thing,we may tend to take things and each other for granted.And that is when friction occurs and even worser scenarios..

Sometimes I am afraid that my overly anticipation or obession with the future may becomes a burden to you,puts you off..or worse becomes our bummer in life.

But no matter how...I guess you will always fit into Shania Twain's "Still the one" ---
--Sunday, November 28, 2004

he night of our 16th month ends off with him helping me with the lines tml and giving a reassuring hug.
---Wednesday, November 24, 2004

Lately Jason hasn’t been msging much. I am not angry but feel somewhat a lost child scratching her head,and thinking what is wrong,where has everyone gone?
Everyone is somewhat,somehow outta touch.As if we live in different zones in this entire universe.
Am I being isolated? Or everyone is just confining themselves in their own time out zone,including myself?
----Thursday, November 18, 2004

Jason spelt this name as Michiela in his hp.I thought he spelt wrongly,but he said he prefered it this way as it sounds French.
----Wednesday, November 17, 2004

I wonder how is Von right now?I hope she is not that impulsive enough to give up Andy though partially I understand how she feels.
I wonder how is Irene…but guess she just have the upper hands anytime.A gal who NEVER has anything wrong in her entire 21 years.
I wonder how is Yin?A fine gal who is so innocent,naïve,straightforward,sweet and cute.Though that poor RQ never gets her love,but I hope she will find someone as good or better.
----Wednesday, November 17, 2004

And so..those were the past…And to my present.
He is someone who surpass any of the guys I had mentioned.
Someone very ordinary yet I find myself praising him to sky high or jump to his defenses if anyone were to ask about him.
Someone who makes me angry and yet I never remember what about the incident when we reconciled.
Someone that I keep mentioning over and over till you are sick of hearing/reading.
Someone whom is more than words.
You know who you are. Love you lots.
----Wednesday, November 17, 2004

I dunno..suddenly..Jason just become so wonderful.
Hehe..I am not too shy to say it here. Now listening to Ronan Keating "when you say nothing at all".Reminds me of my first birthday celebrated with him.
There at the beach,him struming and singing.Though the planes were a source of noise pollution.But that was one of the best-est date I ever had.Hehe.

Sigh..I miss him.
I really,now,kinda look fwd to the day when we are old enough to set up our own family.
Our home,our children..our time.
I remembered in one of his smses yonks ago,he wrote something like..asking me not to cry now..cry when he proposes,cry when he put the wedding band on my finger,cry when we have our own home,cry when we have our first child..etc.
Hee..that is so..sweet...and something that he never tells me now. I dunno what is he afraid of now..but most probably it is my fault. I faulted alot in this relationship and that perhaps made him lose the confidence of having the future dream with me.

But...I hope...One day..I would be able to help him regain that confidence.
I just msg and ask would he sing This I Promise You should one day he would propose to me? Duh... Dont blame me for being impatient..Blame my winamp that is playing that song now.
I hope my dreams doesnt put a pressure on him..But I think it does:(

Sorry... -_-
-----Sunday, October 24, 2004

Rec Jason's love letter last night and was laughing and feeling so sweet as I read it yesterday. Hehe. My first love letter~;p
----Saturday, October 23, 2004

And last night Jason wanted to come and fetch me after my tuition.But ironically I boarded the bus he alighted and we ended up missing each other.
This sounds like some drama plot huh. But still he came to my house and we chatted under the block.
That night he was my buddy.

How nice it would be to share a relationship with a guy that is not only your lover,but your guardian angel,your buddy,your anger venting machine,your grumbling venting machine,your everything.haha.
We are not just talking about the good side of relationship always.
Do I look fwd to the point of time when I can look back and realised how much this love has make us to grow?;)
----Saturday, October 23, 2004


Think i also need to clear my table.It is in a mess.
Listening to Jay Chou "Xing Qing" now.
Reminds me of Jason of coz.Sometimes I cant stand him singing every now and then.But sometimes I just miss him singing.
---Sunday, October 10, 2004

hope my dear is well. headaches go away~ he has alot to go this week.
---Monday, October 04, 2004

Sigh...still feel very sian about that thwarted call from my boo.
Sometimes..I really WISH he makes more efforts for smaller things in life.
Sometimes I wonder am I asking for too much or what.
Sometimes I wonder why am I doing the msging most of the times,saying good night..etc..makes me feels so useless.
Sometimes...I still think..being single is good.

If there is one thing I hate about Jason,there would be his soccer commitment at the WRONG time.
Here I am thinking that we ought to spend more time with each other,here I am willingly to spend 2 to 3 hours of our precious Saturday waiting for him to finish training...and there,a thwarted call!

Actually I understand that it isnt his fault,I am not angry with the person,but am really very SICK of his soccer thingy.

We dont meet every other day,infact now,we really only meet ONCE a week!
My god..how many couple get by meeting ONCE a week,for that few hours..and really like,not spending quality time together?!
----Thursday, September 16, 2004

I think...I have destroyed Jason's confidence alot.
Coz suddenly I recalled..he used to be a much confident guy thatI know,as compare to now.I know it is my fault.
But I kinda miss and need that confident Jason back with me.
It is that Jason that I see in the soccer field. That kinda smile he gave from the field when I saw,though I was sitting far, is so charming though.
---Sunday, September 12, 2004

Wish Jason msges more,but guess he is really busy.
---Friday, August 27, 2004

And Jason..Ha,need I say anything?
He really needs help in giving surprises in life,but again..he is too nice for a bf.And lucky he is mine. Muacks~
---Thursday, August 26, 2004

So I called him over.We talked..and he cried badly.
I guess I am really stronger than him coz he always cry first;p

Suddenly..he kept very quiet. Was I afraid of breakup?
I guess I am more afraid of breakup if he did it for ME.

Every words he said cuts me..not because it hurts me but makes me realises how much I hurt him. I told him very frankly how I feel and again and again,I have got his assurance.

It is always for me..he always did things for me.
That is the boy who is always there for me. Tonight..every words he said touched me.

At the ending part,we were sitting like 2 good friends..when I really have the urgency to go toilet.haha. I guess..this relationship still has alot more to learn.
---Tuesday, August 24, 2004


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I kinda wanna carry on but my eyes really, really hurt.
Think I shall rest it.